Monday, February 04, 2008
{ 3:34 PM }
to be freehahaaa. tried to change blog song. butt. so so sad the song was not on the list of that web.. ahhhh.=( sadd.
oh well. i'll change it when that song is IN the list or find some other nice songs. haha.
school was alright. though hx had a bad day right, almost all the teachers said something about you.lol.
oh. tmr last day of studying before its the CNY holidayss!!!!!=D
looking forward! haha. and im still quite unsure if i wanna go JC or poly.. which is bad cos i need to aim! i feel like going Poly but i think jc is better cos i wanna go UNI faster. HOWWWWWWWW. diee. aiya! if go poly, the tourism course is 10pts, CJC is 12pts.
well, at least im aiming around there. really hope it wont be like PSLE. haha, dont ask me what happened.. lol. it was quite dissapointing la. hopefully i've learnt something.
and since its only a few ppl that can actually read what i write.. i guess i can say anything that comes to myy mind or what i feel abt something. EXCEPT DEB AND JED XD
well. i really dont know la. i only know that i chose to do something that i thought was right but it turned out kinda wrong. abit. and although i dont really totally regret doing what i did.. the consequences were so not what i thought/wanted la.
thats why i think i was jus too childish or.. simple minded to think that:
oh, im gonna do this and this, and thats gonna happen and the problems solved. haha at least thats one thing i learnt from this experience.
and nobody knows, although obviously he's the one hurt the most but at the end, as time passes he slowly heals but my 'pain' sort of increases. thats why its so stupid. i dont know why and im trying to but..
maybe like i said he promised that he wont care for me less if i chose to let him go or whatver and i trust that he meant it .. thats probably whyy i feel like that.
because he doesnt care about me anymore, not that he has to but he was the one who said all those stuff. why cant he stick to it? i know of cos he needs time but where was he when i needed him. and when ppl tell me some stuff like hhe's unhappy or wat. im really quite at a loss. whether to ask if he's ok or jus treat it as there isnt any need for me to bother so much abt how he feels anymore. YOU SEE..
hahaha. one thing's for sure, as someone always say. that most of my problems are caused my myself. me thinking too much. but cant you see, thats just who i am.
i doubt anyone actually read to the end here but it doesn't rlly matter cos at least i feel like i've told someone.(:
ahhhh. its late.
NEW YEAR'S COMINGGG!!=D
