Friday, June 06, 2008
{ 10:03 PM }
yup, im blogging, again.
anw, i dont want CRonaldo to go Real Madriddddd!!! X(
haha. NOOO. i dont allow.hahaha.
anyway. this shall be a random post.
Ok. i shall begin.
u know i dont really care what other ppl think of me. yes, maybe i am bitchy and a flirt and what not in some people's eyes. i probably am.
but i know for a fact what i am doing and i cant help it if i still have that image. because i know some ppl who say that i flirt( meaning talk to guys and wink and twirl hair is it? whatever their definition is) but they themselves try even harder than me to talk to guys. cos i dont go around looking for guys to talk to. and if they talk to me, im not the sort of person who will say in their face: i dont like you, so go away. so probably u think i lead people on. so, ya.
and i still dont get why ppl always care so much about my personal life. why cant u just go deal with yr own life and stop telling me what i should/ should not do. unless u want to be involved in my personal life.
i probably havent said this, but i
dont want and
dont need all these attention. i mean if u want it, i can share it with you all. take it. u think its very fun for me? to always have to be the one answering to those ppl and being scared that i hurt their feelings and end up not only doing so, but having a brilliant image of myself.
fun?
suree, although i admit all these attention is something i've never had before in the past, i dont want it at all. okay.
and you. its hard for me to say anything now bcos im still at the stage where i dont know what im feeling. but i only have one thing to say. you were the one who told me u've gotten over her and i trusted u. if u knew that u'd change yr mind one day, why didnt u tell me. i rather you've told me sooner than me finding out myself and feeling like a damn fool being stepped on. okay, maybe what im saying now is jus out of sadness or anger, whatever. but i truly thought u were very different and.. it really hurts. i know u hate disappointing others but isnt this worse. and now, im back here where i blame myself for falling so deep. i dont know whats gonna happen but i wish for u to tell me soon. good or bad, its better than this.
ahhhhhhhh.
okay, i feel sooo weird now.
i dont like yoou jolene:(
haha.
why must it be so annoyingly confusing..
okay, im gonna go watch tv and rot.
byeee :D
im not used to life without you by my side
